MY SOLITARY VALENTINE

Baby.....are you there...
see, my hearts bleeding,
but that won't stop me from loving

shall i rely on you?
will i wait for you?

i'm holding on to the bars
and leaning through the walls

that means i'm alone...
but i'm standing on my own

mending.

letting go...

am i...?

for a while, i've been away from the limelight of blogging, 

and i miss writing in its true essence, 

that is, writing and conveying my inner thoughts/truest emotions.. 

i couldn't say that the reason of my absence is because i am traveling most of the time

 or i am overstressed with my very demanding work 

or striving with the familiarity of the unfair,

 but rather my feelings dictates me of the fact 

that, i can no longer write nor take an awesome photoshoot  

because my eyes ceased to tell me how colorful the rainbows are, 

and the voice within me stopped whispering 

the words that could make my heart skipped a bit. 

yes, i've been inlove for a while, succumbed with the fantasy

of finding the rare and real, held it in my palms

felt it in my bones, affecting my soul

yet, that rare kind of love i found

i have to let go 

because i know it's time to

the truth among my lies is realizing that there were only two instance why i am inspired to write, 

that is...

when i am inlove and broken hearted. 

and at the moment, i am neither of the two...

am i..?

GOING THE DISTANCE

i will go the distance, cross the ocean and travel the land, to find my way to your heart...

DETERMINATION

behind every courage is the determination to conquer the giant shadow beside and inside every human.

blame it to the fallin' rain

busy day is it
or was it?
i haven't noticed the time
 it just passed
 and when it hit the hour of 5
 i saw twilight
that means
its time to go
and so i gathered my things up and rushed to the ladder
for i know
He stood there at the blocks
as usual
standing, smiling, looking my way, waiting...
and then i reached to the treshold
 stirring eagerly,
as i am seeing HIM clearly in a distance
like a god perfectly statued
a face you would always wish to see
a cheeks you would always want to touch
a lips you would always longed to kiss
that's HIM i whispered to myself
i motioned to get close
 but as i get nearer
 HIS stance is slowly fading
disappearing
in a panic state i glanced sideways
i saw familiar place
pointing same direction
i know i've been here
but then i stopped
coz when i looked again into the blocks
 i saw an empty space
 and to realize
i'm having an illusion with a vivid memory..
i stared for a moment
wishing my eyes is not telling me right
but when i lift my head
it struck into my mind
that
seeing HIM here
 happened yesterday
He is somewhere else Today
and will never be here Tomorrow....
so i
take aback
walk away
 and 
blink..
one more blink
it must be the fallin' rain
touches my cheeks?
i'm not sure...

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 PAIN IN MY HEART
 Arnel Pineda

TIME

there's so many hours in a day and i missed you every single second of it...


i haven't known time so sweet and precious yet so hasty but the times spent with you...


and, i haven't known time the longest and so sluggish but the times spent with out you...


now that we're apart, i've known time in eternity...

time..when you have it, make the most....
when it's gone, it can never  be yours, again...

leaving and letting go

everytime someone has to leave by your side, out of sight and  out of touch for some reasons beyond your control, it always ends up breaking your heart like a glass shattered into pieces. and you being the one left behind would feel as if the whole world has turned their backs against you.

you held yourself to compose and embrace your fate to console, that all people who comes in and out of your life has reasons for going and leaving, and make yourself believe that in this life, everything happens has  purpose whether it happened by accident or intentional.

so it happened. they've come but they're gone and you're all alone. just give your self a little time to heal, a little space to move and a little air to breathe in, until then you can unchain your heart from the knots of the promises of forever.

put away the pain. until then, you'll find yourself again.

learning the art of letting go...

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THE ART OF LETTING GO - MIKAILA

city life

some wishes to see and reach the peak of the stairs of a high rise building or make believe that city life is a life that is as good as it gets... i can't tell that, cause i haven't been there

hard time to forever

i'm having a hard time laying my thoughts recently, must have been that few days from now i'll be putting my views into new and different perspective, leaving behind the old and familiar things and routines in my daily waking hour...as the clock ticks it rings to me that i'm running short of time to do the things that need to be done, people and places that need to come and see, must have things thats been overlooked or discounted but mind it no more as to strive is futile. for the part that wasn't achieved nor get done, i'll leave it to fate and the good luck. time pass inevitably and i wish i could hold it to stop, so i would stay forever this way,but i won't either, for i know i wouldn't be happy anyway...it's just the thought of letting go and moving on thats hard to own up..

Je t'aime pour toujours...

moonlight shines on me

darkness falls, her heart falls apart, blinded with fears, with tears...only the moonlight consoled and gave her comfort...

solace

keeping at guard with your sanity is finding solace with your sobering thought

STRANDED

it doesn't matter being stranded to wherever, far or away, as long as i am stranded with you...

last glance and recollection

...and a last glance to where we've been are recollections of the places and faces we've seen, so this is farewell ... just remember i love you <3

SAIL ON, SAIL BY

sail on with the sea and sail by with the wind, no matter the tides and distance, go... conquer your destiny.

TRUTHFUL

TRUTHFUL - i am straightforward, tactful, genuine and unbiased in all my dealings.

REALIZATION: i never been judgmental with the masks and the likes of others as i truly respect individuality. likewise, i don't view one side of the story and i like you if you like me, but if you don't, i don't mind it all. i settle my own business and none of it is yours...

superior inferior

inferiority doesn't mean others are above you all the time, you are unique and that makes you equal with everyone.

UNCERTAINTIES

the uncertainties of the immortals begins in a journey at the end of a road less traveled...

Looking Beyond

Feeling so small, but standing so tall.

CONSTANT

CONSTANT - resolute, dependable, real. i can never deceived by temporary gain...

P.s.


vv....i wish i could spend forever in your arms...

learning patience

i was thinking what have i learned on this day?
well, this time not much on the english side but rather more on my interpersonal relationship as i was able to talked with two beautiful but anxious people.
their anxieties was brought by the strain of one seeking for a career growth - PROMOTION.

so why the tension?
because the challenge for career growth is stiff, it's a race where one would do everything to stride against the other to get ahead.
as i assumed the role of a motivator, i told them to just go on with what they started, comply with what is being asked, don't rely with anyone to help them but rather give their best shot in all their undertakings and IN GODs  own time they will become what they ought to be...

wait for your time,

success entails hardwork

..but it doesn't mean that you just sit and think and it be given to you,
nurture yourself and cultivate those hidden talent that is innate in you..
so when time comes that you shine, you would realize why it is only this time...